As I was walking in the DMV this morning, I prayed I wouldn’t have to be there long! I walked in looked at the pull number it said #83. I checked the board above me, and #54 was lit up. As I reached for #83, I noticed a few loose numbers lying on the counter. I shuffled through the small pile of loose numbers… I saw it, glaring at me… #64 had returned to its previous place in line. I picked it up and said a silent thank you to the person who had returned it and thanked the Lord for my first blessing at the DMV. I was there to change my address, which entailed a new photo. Ugh, but I loved my photo I already had… I didn’t want to change it.. It was me, dark headed and about 30ish pounds lighter.. I didn’t want to give that up. But for “tickets” sake.. I had to surrender the old photo for a new one. So off I walked towards the blue backdrop to smile for the camera. I wondered what the “new photo” would look like in comparison? Within minutes, the machine spit it out and my new license was handed over to me. I looked at my new photo, blonder hair, rounder face, a few more wrinkles… then the QUESTION came….
Would you like to keep your old license? Me? Do I really want the reminders that I had put on a FEW pounds.. lighter hair due to the ever present stubborn gray… Looking down holding the two IDs, comparing them in my hands.. looking at the old slimmer, darker me .. memories flooded my mind. I said no mam, I don’t want to hold on to the younger me in that photo, I need to be reminded of the me today. You see that skinner me wasn’t the spiritual me I am today. The spiritual me back then had missed out on the relationship with God that is so freely available. It was more of a check list, a to-do list than a surrendered heart to my Creator. . Seeking Him first, above all else! So I’ll gladly take where I am today (even with the more poundage) My spiritual growth now far out weighs where I was back then. So I will gladly surrender the old me, to where I am with my Jesus today. “Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.”
Can’t wait see where He takes me next. Heart wide opened.. seeking You daily the King of my heart. Lead me on.. I will follow! May the pictures of the past remind you of how far you’ve come and how “bright” your future looks!! Let’s grow together… “But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.”