Infertility is such a huge burden that many women become depressed. After years of trying, the endless doctor waiting and examine rooms, the constant monthly frustrating disappointments can spiral into feelings of hopelessness. Some of you – some of us – may even lose faith in God.
I relate too well to this progression. The emotional burden becomes a spiritual struggle as the physical problem is not resolved. I can relate to this also. I dealt with infertility for years. Experiencing defeat over and over can result in horrific emotional pain. It becomes difficult to talk about it, to process the waiting. It becomes just pain.
I will tell you what I learned through those disappointing years: God is always faithful. My faith became stronger through those hard times because dealing with tough times really proved how tough my faith was. When another check-up revealed no answers, God faithfully helped me hold on. I couldn’t give up, could I? God you are not asking that of me, are you? God answers: the waiting is me working.
Don’t you know the evil one would love for us to give up on God when we our hopes and dreams go unfulfilled?
God’s answer to his servant, Job, is a reminder of pausing and recalling His power. His SUPREMACY. Although He created us to be His, He created us for HIS glory. Not our own. Thus, God answers Job. “Who are you, to question me?” (paraphrased).
And this is the God who will answer you. And me. I believe Job understood. And hopefully you will to, that God can do everything, except sin, lie, or make mistakes. God not only had the power and authority to do whatever He wanted, but does and will do everything He desires. This God can be trusted, however, because He is holy and sovereign. Whatever He designs or allows to enter our lives serves His good and ours.
My faith became stronger through those hard times because dealing with tough times really proved how tough my faith was. The evil one would love for us to give up on God when our hopes and dreams go unfulfilled. Satan is patient. He will wait and see what is the thing that will cause us to abandon God. Although you may feel like God has abandoned you, I assure you He has not. He never, ever gives up. Through infertility, I learned that God rewards faithfulness.